The Next Thing....

    The first thing I do after opening my laptop is open YouTube. I surfed YouTube for 5 minutes and I played a song. The next thing I do is to open Netflix and Prime. I scroll around for sometime hoping I would find something to watch but all I do is keep on surfing for the next 15 minutes as I end up watching either Brooklyn 99 or Friends.

    I then open my Thesis document to see where I have left off. I haven't written a word since the last 2 days. I am so ashamed of myself. I couldn't bring myself to start writing so I jumped into Netflix again. After being terribly bored by it I opened the TV series folder and continue How I Met Your Mother from where I have left off.

    I promised myself that I will start working after watching 1 episode. Slowly one became two and two became six.  While watching these six episodes I also scrolled through Instagram on the side. I am a multitask-er by nature. It wouldn't be fair if I didn't waste time to my full potential. While scrolling Instagram I sent football memes to a friend and that struck a conversation about the football transfer window. All of these where happening while I was watching How I Met Your Mother on my laptop.

    The next thing I know I get a call from my friend. I quickly paused HIMYM. I took out my earphones and plugged it into my phone to attend the call. I again scroll Reddit while I am talking to him. I talk about cricket, crypto portfolio and some family issues with him. An hour later I am again bored. I told my friend that I will call him again and cut the call. I picked up my water bottle and drank because I need energy to waste time.

    The next thing I do is open YouTube again and resumed the song that I paused when I began watching HIMYM. I again started scrolling Instagram, I replied to messages on snap chat and Whatsapp. I ignored a few too.

    The next thing I do is put aside my phone because its out of charge. I then open Netflix and Prime. I am shit bored of them now. I opened HIMYM again. For a brief time when the video was loading I saw my own reflection in my laptop. I looked at myself and felt utter disgust. I have never felt disgust like that in my life. The video started playing and I couldn't see my face again. So I hit the power button. The screen went blank. I was again looking at the blank screen while the HIMYM music was playing in the background. I couldn't even look at myself for ten seconds. I again felt disgusted. I hastily closed my laptop as I couldn't look at myself.

    The next thing I do is open my phone again and the first news I see is "Leo Messi leaves Barcelona," It only amplified what I felt about myself. I don't know how. I threw my phone away. I switched off my light. I jumped on my bed and started crying.

    The next thing I know I am deep asleep with a heavy heart and moist eyes......