I will quit tomorrow.....

    Oct 29th was the last day that I worked on my project and since then I have been a mass procrastinator. I never had any doubts about my capability to handle my project. It is my ability and overconfidence, that is making me postpone my work. My next deadline is the month end of February and I know I am so screwed. In these four months' time, I have watched countless movies and TV series went on a trip, wrote 4 stories, 6 poems, and started a blog. I sometimes feel like I am inventing ways to pass time. I can get my ass to write pages of stories but I just can't get to my work. I wanted to start a blog in 2017, which is the extent of my procrastination. Is my work boring? I don't think so. Is it interesting? I don't know. How will I know when I haven't even started. Every night I feel terrible about wasting a lot of time. Every morning when I wake up and I realize that wasting time is so fun. I was not always like this. 2 years back I adored my work. I worked my ass off. I was considered one of the best work-wise and work ethics wise. I am unconventional but I ain't ignorant. I get up daily thinking I have to work, earlier I never had to think about it. I just got to it. Maybe it is the thinking that is screwing up with me. I just blame everything on the pandemic these days. Yes, my mental health has been disturbed by the pandemic. Now I am just anxious most of the time. I wake up in the middle of the night panicking that I have to work. But there were times where I truly sat to work and every single time something or the other popped that I couldn't ignore. once I lost my display of monitor, my Abaqus stopped working twice, Christmas, trip a new year, Sankranti and its valentines week now. Every day I keep telling myself that I will stop procrastinating and start my work from the tomorrow. I have miserably failed to do it everyday for the last three months.I need to find a solution to this. I need to get out of this mess. I need to quit procrastinating. Maybe I will quit tomorrow.